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A Blow from my Heart

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This time I’ll give a big blow from my heart, for I no longer want to be like this. I want to feel that I am your princess, that I am important to you and you cant leave with out me. I no longer want to be taken for granted nor ignored.

Now is the right time to say it to you, it may be difficult, it be not easy. But one thing I know its the best thing for both of us. Even if the celebration of hearts is coming near, I want to make the right move and I know this is the best decision I’ve ever make. I am sorry but I can no longer wait until the heart’s day.

I have to say the word, that its all over for both of us. Its been 4 long wider years, we’ve had it all when we are very much in love to each other. But now that distance separates us, we became cold to each other. I guess its been more than a year when I started to feel that you are getting cold towards me. I cant blame you, for I was not around for 2 years. I also can’t deny, that even if you are here with me, I feel that there is still distance that separate us. I maybe see you physically, but I know you are emotionally and spiritually away from me.

You may dont want to say, that there is someone else in your life now. I dont have to wait until that day happen, before I could make decision. I guess instinct is enough for me to say its over. This is the big blow coming from the deep of my heart.

 

Long Distance Relationship is my Love Story

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Indeed I am in a long distance relationship for quite some time. Before we put ourselves into this situation, we have spent years of togetherness and we have personal attachment to each other. I can say, that our relationship has put in to test when its time for us to have this distance that separate us. I am used being with him for quite some time, he keeps on bugging me and that really makes me irritated. We have fondness to each other, and we just love it.

When I knew that its time for us to have this long distance relationship, its really sad and its tearing me apart. But he is just right there keeps on holding me and reminding me that everything will be alright.

Months have passed by, and years. We dont have any problems, I get used to it. He told me that there are days that we cant talk nor communicate but he assure that he wont forget me nor out of his mind. Since I love him so much, so much, so much, I accepted it without even questioning him. But now, without talking to him, I feel that I am no longer in his mind, I feel that it over for the two of us.

There are things I want to clarify to him and asked him, but time wont allow us. Now I am in the stage of falling apart….

Through my Horizon…

 I am already 30 years old still looking for a career to establish. Got confused which way to walk on and be successful. Did not even know if ill take this road, will I be successful just like the way I thought? At the same time, am also afraid to deal with another disappointment. I no longer do not know how to handle or manage disappointment. I could no longer see the light on each every road I choose. Am confused, I am even puzzled with all of this. I keep on scrutinizing all options I have. Check every advantages and disadvantages in every option.

I would like to stretch out the horizon I have. In the other part of the world, I might see the light, which I keep on looking. Before doing that, I need to take risk. How much risk is willing to take? I know this is my weakness, because I know I am not a risk taker. I always see myself in a safe place to my comfort zone. This time I need to overcome that weakness. I need to learn the art of taking the risk. I guess once I have learned in taking the risk. By that time, I could see every opportunity I would like to have.

I am not ready yet, but I realized that in living and surviving life. I need to take risk in every opportunity I would like to have. I am still reflecting in doing it. Maybe soon.

It’s New and No earnings Yet

This blog is new and I have to work it out for it to be available in advertisers. But it takes time before I could do it, first I have to make my blog mature for 3 months and I have to complete more than 30 posts. I also need to work on my statistics the PR and the visitors. I have to work out as well the SEO for it to be search-able all through out the world web.

With all the working out that I need to do, it will take time for this blog to be monetize. For the meantime I have to post articles here that are my daily ramblings, my rants and other things that I can call my own schema. It makes my life more colorful and meaningful if I have to put it on writings and share it to you my dear readers. It maybe boring but its the story of my life that I am sharing with you. If its sounds interesting for you to get to know me well and get the gist of my daily life. You are always welcome to come back and drop by to my blog home and if you do leave, please leave with a mark so that I could also follow you back.

Its a simple request and hope everyone will enjoy what you get from here.

Simple Note from being Lost in the Space

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I just could not do anything here on web, so I just browse and browse. Just wasting my time, because there is nothing that I could write here. Until I’ve read this message from another website, just caught my interest and would like to share it with my dear readers.

When I read this one, I didn’t have hard time reading it. I am reading it as if just like an ordinary spelling and writing. As if I am reading in the book, just like that. Would you imagine yourself writing this way on your blog and reading it as well. I guess its not a headache at all, but I know there is still down fall on this and it would not do any good to humanity race.

I am sharing this, just because out of nothing at all. Maybe I just wanted to let my stress out by writing non sense things. It made me feel relax doing this, rubbish writings. Forgive me I am not being helpful and reliable, I am not yet motivated to do blogging. At the same time I could not waste my time doing nothing.

And I end up posting this meaningless post. Hurray for me!